who i m??

Who I m? did my friends really realize me? sometime i don't realize who i m?!
What my friends see is only a part of what I m.
I have a hundred different faces,
a million different personalities.
only a part of me is what i show to my friends.
I display a fraction of my true self.
sometime is just a facade
it is not truth of me
my friends don't know me, because they have not enough of observation.
a few of my friend did, but they left anyway!

dark

after finished my diploma in MLT, i feel my future is very dark, i can't see what is my future! firstly apply to UTar, they said i m not illegible becoz i m not science stream student! secondly, wanted to apply to IMU, their minimum entry requirement is 2.75. until now i also confuse why my result so bad?! izit put less effort in my study?
I have just finish my refferal exam last week, confusing whether can do it or not?
today is the convo day, but i m not attending, all of my classmate ask me y i m not attending? i answer them, becoz i need futher study to my degree so wait for the next convo la! actually what i m thinking is, i have not enough qualified to convo although i had pass all my sub.

Memories

after 4 months training i felt my self have some changes, which is become more confidence when talking to people. what i had learned from hospital? suddenly i want to refresh back the department in the hospital i went to.

First week in the hospital, i was in urine section.all the urine is run by machine but before run into machine, need to pour the urine into the test tube, it is too smelly, i will never forget this smell.



second section i went to biochemistry section. this is the machine for blood testing.






third is hematology section. the supervisor in this department look very fierce but she is quick good person.




forth is immunology section. the supervisor told me a lot of Christian story, she less talk about lab testing.






fifth is blood bank. i love this section very much. especially when prepare blood







six n seven is Hispathology and cytopathology. this two section is about tissue and cell. the unforgettable things is the air condition in thes two section are very cold, i like tis condition very much. becoz the lower temperature can preserve the tissue, tats y it is soo cold.







last section is microbiology, this section is too dangerous, it can infected through inhalation therefore must wearing face mask any time.

not be accustomed to

after my industrial training, i still thinking wat i have to do?! at last i choose to further study. last time when i was training in hospital, every supervisor in different department ask me what i will do after training, working or further study? i answer, not confirm yet. after a deep think, i choose study, becoz i think tat my self have not enough of knowledge! but now i still connot find any part time job, measuring length at home everyday. this sunday will going to UTAR for register new course, this time i want to study about bacteria, virus, n parasite which is bachelor in Microbiology. hope i can finish my degree as fast as possible. i want to work in hospital lab to get more experience. live in doing nothing is very very very boring!! ><

measuring floor

i did my final exam on 24 feb, after my exam i was so happy n felt relax. after these what should i do? i m looking for university now, i want to study biomedical science, i know utar n imu have this course, i need to wait the education fair on next month!haiz..i had check for the intake in internet for utar is on may, but i need to go to kampar.. pity!!intake for imu is on July, i don't want wait for so long so may be i will register for utar.I want to go Singapore, but i have not enough money! the school took all my money without reason, i need going back to school on Monday. hate it very much!

back to future

finally, 4 months industrial training is over. back from penang yesterday, live in penang very like 18 century, 1 word can describe 'boring'! the staff in hospital always said the food in penang very nice, but i straight reply them 'it is very difficult to eat' haha..this 4 months live in Penang, it is very difficult, many problem come to encounter me! haiz..but it is all over, start a new life ^^

finally

finally, still have a week more cny is coming. but i feel not happy at all. because i suffering many problems since i came to penang. the problems non-stopping come to me, it is too suffered. last friday my head of school phone to me when i was working and doing paps smear, when i still on the line with him, i cry immediately, he told me tat the nursing students complain me said that my auntie disturb them, then i told him, before the nursing students move in to the hostel, i already ask for the permission that my auntie will continue staying with me until 27 Jan. i felt so angry that i heard that i disturb them. stupid malay girls!! besides, after the nursing students moved in, they spoil the electricity, made the whole house no electricity for 2 days. the students told the person who incharge then she said will phone to the owner. the owner said that he will coming on the second day night, but he didn't come, make me cannot bath hot water in the morning and boil water. i phone to my parents n tell them the problem, my father call his friend which stay in penang, ask him can help me find people to service the electricity. about 8 o'clock night, the uncle bring a man come n service, at last service for RM90. and don't know weather can get it back the money also! haiz