feeling again

what i m feeling now? what i feeling now is when i went to national service last 2 years ago. but this time is more serious because when i tat time pong pong is accompany with me. this time i going alone, and staying with stranger. just now my head of course told me the school already help me found a hostel, the address will given me next week. when he talking to me, my tears dropped again when in the bus. I don't know whats wrong to me!!i must more independent, if not i won't grow up ><